I didn’t take my meds for FOUR DAYS! Here’s what happened…

Not only a huge mistake, but a terrible one at that. There was no reason for me not to take them; I just didn’t feel like it. If that’s not the most ridiculous thing to say, but I can admit when I F up! Here I am trying to help people learn to live their best lives and I’m not trying to live mine. I really, but I guess I’m not! Let me explain…I’m doing everything right, but I say that because there’s a reason for me being prescribed medication for my anxiety and depression. Not taking them just because I don’t want to is one of the worse things that you can do. In the past I’ve skipped a day here and there, but it’s not often. I’ve only missed my meds if I forgot them at home. But normally I’m on this. I even asked my doctor what would happen if I don’t take them as prescribed and he basically said that trying to ween yourself off of any prescribed medication is extremely dangerous and to never do it. So why would I do this with pills that help with various chemical imbalances is beyond me? It was just stupid!

I noticed right off that I was anxious about every little thing. The smallest shit! I couldn’t focus on much. My temperament and attitude were completely off. I had absolutely no tolerance for things that were even my fault. At one point I noticed that I was just sitting at my desk for a very long time without even moving. I made myself stay off of social media as much as possible. I couldn’t watch the news; and this was the worse week to be trying to stand up to my meds. Saturday evening, I was supposed to attend my Local Union’s end of the year Gala, but I decided to skip out on it, because my mood was terrible. I seriously was scaring myself at how moody I had become in just a few days. The crazy thing is that I was completely aware of what was going on with me. Maybe it was paranoia because I knew that I hadn’t taken my medication and that was making me pay attention to myself even more. Whatever it was…I will never do it again. So today, Sunday…I took my medication as soon as I woke up like I always do. It’s completely like night and day. I’m extremely focused today. I have more energy than I’ve had in the past few days. My mood is so much more stable.

Going through all of this seriously made me think. Is this how I was before being. diagnosed and put on medication? I seriously hope not. I look at that person as “the old me” I do think that I got a quick glimpse of who I was and I didn’t like that person. I know many of you are thinking; why would you share something like this? I’m sharing this because it’s real! Too many people are afraid to be real. Being real doesn’t mean sharing your personal business, but I wanted to put this out there to let people know that mental health is real. DOn’t be afraid to seek help. Everyone doesn’t need to be medicated. I’m someone who was always against medication, but I see (especially now) how important it is. My advice to you is, please don’t ever skip your prescription medication for anything.